I just want to feel this moment

“If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present.”

– Lao Tzu

I recently heard this quote at it really resonated with me. Despite being a neuroscientist, I had a pretty hazy understanding of the distinction between the 2 terms, but this makes perfect sense. It also made me think of a quote from a Russian song by Oleg Anofriyev:

“There is only a moment between the past and the future. And that moment is called life.”

– Oleg Anofriyev

So many of us live in the past. We reminisce about what life used to be and feel sorry for ourselves that those golden days are gone.

At other times we think “I will be happy when…”. When I get a boyfriend, when I get married, when I get a job, when I live in a nice house, when I have time for my hobbies…

But in between all of this, life just passes us by. We miss that MOMENT between the past and the future. But that is the only time that we can actually feel like we are alive.

While initially I meant to put a different meaning into my 2018 work “Hope” (you can read more about it here), I like the new interpretation. The moment the sand passes between the top and the bottom compartments of the hourglass is what we can call LIFE.


Hope, 2018

3-dimensional bead work inside of an hourglass. Wooden frame. Height 12″, Width 7″

$500.00

Do you have any other potential interpretations of this piece? I would love to hear about them in the comments!

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  1. If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present.”

    – Lao Tzu

    How does this quote relate to PTSD

    it is trauma from the past that feels like it is alive

    22 vets commit suicide everyday from past trauma
    The past three years

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    1. I think PTSD applies to the first half. I don’t think this quote was ever meant to undermine how people process their trauma.

      Personally, despite working in neuroscience, for a long time I could not tell if I have anxiety or depression. This quote helped me look at the type of repetitive thoughts I have and how to address them.

      Also, how do you distinguish if you are living in the past and keep re-experiencing the trauma vs. someone who had a great past and misses it dearly after it’s gone. How would you refer to their state in the second scenario?

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      1. Well if I feel like a
        Kid I know my trauma is active and dissociation is running

        PTSD is different than normal
        Life

        I was severely abused by my father so my brain developed in survival
        Mode

        Safety creativity and attachment were all not present

        So if you are a normal
        Person you would have no idea what my day to day life was like

        And that is a very good thing

        My life is a moment to
        Moment awareness battle

        I win some and lose some

        PTSD brings intrusive thoughts and cortisol when it wants

        Trust is damn near impossible for
        Me

        Also, how do you distinguish if you are living in the past and keep re-experiencing the trauma vs. someone who had a great past and misses it dearly after it’s gone. How would you refer to their state in the second scenario?

        I would refer to that state as more neutral

        The Trick is happiness is only in one time zone now

        Many people hold on to the last great
        Memories and lose now

        For us abused kids memories are not good but many horrific

        We do not experience the second scenario much

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      2. I am really sorry to hear about what happened to you Marty. Do you find that blogging helps you to express and process your feelings? It is certainly a creative thing to do.

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  2. Oh I ran a mindfulness group for nami and I have a mindfulness ptsd blog

    I have improved a lot healing is hard to define

    I meditated five years straight for five hours a day.

    My fight or flight stopped firing then my triggers started to subside

    A repressed memory exploded recently

    So trauma activated again

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